Dark thoughts only matter later

So, I was thinking last night that since nobody really has time, being dead now instead of later gives folks the excuse of Covid-19. Nobody has to feel guilty about not showing up. Because of the virus, they can't. 

There's the usual platitudes. The poor jokes, "If you die on me, I'll kill you." Etc. But, since nobody has time for me now, I only see the pain for Mom lasting. I'm sure once the shock is over, I will be forgotten. I'm being forgotten now, why not later when I am gone?