Saturday

Went to church for service. Then, drove to Cotton Eyed Joe's in Knoxville. Never been clubbing before. I had fun. I jumped in a did a little line dancing.

I got a burger, fries, and grape Smirnoff ice. It was all very good. I watched two men do some lassoing.

Now, I'm in bed at the Clarion Inn near the club. 

Why late is not better

My husband believes firmly , "Better late than never." Which means we have probably been early or on time anywhere 6-7 times in almost 9 years old marriage.

Just don't bring up that he's ADD. Because if he's pissed off at me he will deny it.

I have told him other truths and end up yelling, "You can't handle the truth!"

Now, after midnight, we are trying to clear cabinets and countertops so a waterline can go from the fridge to the sink. Because, he wanted water and ice in the door and I didn't. I keep telling him that they're more trouble than they're worth. Of course, I am ignored. It doesn't ever matter how many times I am right, which is a very high % of the time, he wants what he wants.

He doesn't pay attention to others either.

Now, I have to take breaks because I have arthritis in my right hip and sciatica on the left. I just feel like we will run out of time and it will be on me tomorrow to finish up.

Paralegal

It's what I wanted to do. By the time anyone will hire me I won't be able to remember my training. People keep saying they will pass along my resume. It does No Good!!

I have tried temp agencies. Nothing! Come on people hire me.

I really think I should sue. I am not even being allowed to do volunteer work for a law anything.

Get it together people! I am passed pissed off!!

Dark thoughts only matter later

So, I was thinking last night that since nobody really has time, being dead now instead of later gives folks the excuse of Covid-19. Nobody has to feel guilty about not showing up. Because of the virus, they can't. 

There's the usual platitudes. The poor jokes, "If you die on me, I'll kill you." Etc. But, since nobody has time for me now, I only see the pain for Mom lasting. I'm sure once the shock is over, I will be forgotten. I'm being forgotten now, why not later when I am gone?

Happy Mother's Day

I miss getting to be with my Mom. She's in a home now. With the virus, the whole place is in lockdown. I'm just glad I got to see her via Skype on Friday and hope to see her the same way tomorrow.

I want to wish my daughter in law, Kayla Mae a Happy Mother's Day. Baby Fifita is due next month, or sooner. Love you!

My Mom's engagement picture.

Favorite toys

One of my favorite toys I called Checkerboard Square man. He always joined my other dolls. One day, I decided to donate him to Toys for Toys. He was just gently used. But, then I started missing him. So, when I grew up, I bought a copy and I am happy to see him again.

Then, when I was very little I watched a show on TV called Julia. It was about a black nurse and her son. My aunt told my Mom she would get it for me for Christmas. But, she didn't. After I grew up, I got a copy 50th anniversary Julia doll. So glad I have her now.