When does being so very weak and tired stop? I feel like he thinks that I can be back to normal now. It's been over a week since my mini stroke.
Where has my resilience gone? I'm sorry but I'm hardly up to pulling me up and out emotionally. I feel like I am in this totally alone.
Cooking. Me.
Laundry? Looks like me again.
Else than holding a job, I can and seem to do Everything myself. Deal with finances. Try to reign in his spending more than mine. Because, that's a huge part of it.
I have to be responsible. I have to hold it together. I have to "not raise my voice" i. e. Not disappoint, not disagree, and heaven forbid, not deprive him of anything. Not deprive him of eating until he is full. Not deprive him of trips.
I can't be a realist because he sees it as being negative.
Why can't he see he needs to do more?
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